What a bastard.

I've got something to write, but I'm not sure how to put it into words.. hmm. This is about an old friend of mine. Who is... no longer a friend of mine. I'm not sure how to put it in words, but it's probably enough to say that I don't want anything to do with this sort of person. Anyway this dude invited me to his party, and I decided to go and maybe mix around. I'm one of the people who came early to his party, and I spent a good deal of time chatting with this person, up till this point everything is coming along fine. People start coming and I start playing cards with a bunch of people, talking and all that sort of shit. After awhile I don't really feel like mixing around with the people and I go and hang out in one of the rooms in the apartment. He comes and starts complaining, so I go out again. I start playing cards with a bunch of people again, and this dude disappears for roughly half an hour to an hour because there isn't enough food. I'm having a half decent time there up to this point. After some time I start feeling kind of bored and I go into one of the rooms again. Lay down and look around... and this fucker comes in and tells me that if I'm not comfortable I can just leave. As if I'm ruining his party. Even if I was a stranger, if a GUEST comes into your party and doesn't feel comfortable, isn't the host supposed to do something? Not withstanding the fact that I've known this guy for 9 years? He invites me over and ignores me then asks me to leave if I'm not comfortable?

This is the same person who was complaining that another friend of mine is a poor host for not entertaining him. What a hypocrite. It takes a real bastard to turn his back on a friend because he wants to look good in front of other people.

edit: I actually took this down after talking to that bastard. What a fucking mistake, 1 year goes by and he goes behind my back and starts talking shit about me because hes not happy, god damn I got screwed over by that little cocksucker. This really goes to show you can't forgive people like this.

Ahh reading my own blog...

Nothing to do... so ive been reading my own blog... the quality of posts seems to deteriorate over time...

Shinjuku Incident...

I went to watch Shinjuku Incident today. That movie is absolutely fantastic, and really thought provoking. Illegal migrant workers and that sort of thing. My father works in the construction line, so I have had plenty of brush ups with workers who don't have permits, or illegal workers. It really made me think, me as a chinese whose ancestors came to Malaysia just 3 generations ago, what it was like to be living that far away from home, away from your family trying to make a living in a foreign country. What happens when the local population discriminates against you, and considers you as something that is inferior. It's been more than half a century since my grandparents/greatgrandparents have migrated to Malaysia. What was it like for them to come here. Why did they come, was life really bad back in China? I remember my father telling me my grandfather came here because the family was being harrassed by tu di. I think that means some sort of gangsters back then. We've come a long way since then...

I guess this must be quite really relevant to the chinese people in China, although even I can relate slightly to what it must have been like. What it's like to bow your head and be treated like that. I suppose chinese people tend to have a lot more sense of pride. We don't like to lose. That might be one of the reasons why the chinese as a whole have been successful.


Hah... It feels like nationalism, except it's for another country. I guess when you have policies in a country that directly discriminates against you, you tend to have less feeling for it. Although I think even if the chinese people in Malaysia would go back to China, as most politicians here seem to want us to. China wouldn't welcome us, because we just aren't it's citizens anymore.

It also makes me appreciate people who don't discriminate against other people. People like Kiang I suppose, he does some pretty stupid things, but his the sort of guy who would never discriminate against other races, it's the sort of thing that I've never seen in anyone else, it's funny because if anyone was in the position to discriminate against somebody of lower class, it would be him.

The Crisis of Credit visualized

The Crisis of Credit visualized, and it's an animation that gives an easy to understand walk through of the credit crisis and how it all happened.

To anyone who has heard of the credit crisis but doesn't know heads or tails of it. Here's a good place to start.

Part 1
Part 2

I actually wrote an article on this. Couple of months back.

I give up.

Tired

Old already, Maybe I've become a little bit stupid. . . . . What to do? I read somewhere that the body goes into overload when people become stressed, adrenaline starts pumping, your body goes on alert and all that crap to make you think and move faster... and if you can't manage your stress properly your body resists going back to normal, and that's when the fatigue kicks in and you just feel tired, all the fucking time. I think that's what has been happening to me.

I'm tired, fuck it. Time to sleep.

Life update...

I'm in my third week in Sunway, and I don't think I'm settling down quite as well as I would want to. I don't really know anyone that well yet, and some of the dudes that I do know I find quite annoying and most of the people here are 3 or 4 years my junior.

When I go to college I find that I kind of numb myself to outside input, I don't really feel anything. It's kind of walking into the lecture room and somehow or another I feel as if I'm not really there. Some of the lecturers are so boring it feels as if my brains about to melt and drip out of my ears. Bla bla bla, bla bla bla... at least the notes are complete, that way I won't have to fail. Ohh man... I should have just skipped this course and just started looking for a job in some relevant field and just work my way up from there. I get the impression that many of the dudes in this course don't really have any idea where they want to be in the future, and when I talk about the sort of thing I'm interested in, like stocks, or just talk about joining some clubs or something or another.. I generally get an uhhhh... or I hear all this shit about how they did this and they did that, and somehow or another it becomes like a pissing contest.

Or maybe I'm just bad with people... Ahhh...

Isn't this a bloody course in Banking and Finance???? You would think that these people would know something in line with finance or investments wouldn't you???